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Sry I haven't blogged in awhile ..... Last few days have been rough

So I apologize for the delay in my blog ...... The night of my 2nd surgery I was so exhausted all I did was sleep.  The surgery now when I look back doesn't seem so bad, but at the time it was the most difficult thing I had to go through.  This was a minor setback in my physio bc I lost some more blood and my hemoglobin was very low.  I felt tired, weak, couldn't lift head up without feeling lightheaded.  This also set me back in my physio - which sucked bc I thought I was doing so well.  Turned out Saturday night I had to have another blood transfusion, just a few units but my body was trying so hard to bring the white cell counts up but it wasn't able to.  My doctor told me I'd feel so much better with the blood tranfusion.  Over the course of the weekend nothing exciting happened, physio does bug you and you don't have as many doctors disturbing you.

On Saturday my bestie Amanda came up for a visit.  She pampered me lol ----- did my cuticles, painted clear nail polish, massaged hands and did some of her muscle activation therapy on my feet.  They are so swollen from the second surgery, can barely move toes.  I love our little chats that we have, she is so positive and a great rock for me to lean on.  I know we've been through a lot but I truly believe you have been my best friend since grade 6.  You are always someone I can count on for an honest response and no matter what I know you would drop everything if I needed you.  I love you bestie xoxo

On Sunday ----- Trevor, Jenny and Avery came for a visit.  Had a nice chat with them and it was great to see Avery walking around everywhere.  Remember at baby group they used to be so small and just entertain themselves on blankies lol.  Too bad Alyssa wasn't up here, they would've had a blast.  I have to share; Jenny asked if she could bring me anything up lol ..... My response was appleslices and baby carrots lol.  Sooooo delicious.  Thank you for coming up to visit its so nice of both of you.  You guys are great friends.  My parents also brought Alyssa up for a visit later on Sunday.  It melts my heart and makes me kinda sad that she is walking everywhere.   She would cuddle in bed with me and watch cartoons ..... I cherish these moments.

On Tuesday night DeeDee and Xtina stopped by for a short visit.  Very sweet of you both and nice to catch up after so long apart.

The rest of this week has been a little bit of a blur.  They have been experimenting with my pain meds, trying to find out the best solution.  They also have been trying to help with my anxiety bc it
gets so bad when nurses turn me, or when I do physio.  I don't know what it is but it's all in my head
bc each time I move or turn it gets easier.  It's so frustrating.  I met with some psych nurses today to discuss my anxiety.  If I really want to get out of here my mind has to be there 100%.   So I'm hoping we can find something that works.  I really wanna get home to my babygirl.

So today the 12th ........ Dr. Ghert came in this morning and took my big dressing off and said everything looks like its healing really well.  She took out a good chunk of my staples, which honestly I thought would hurt more but I barely felt a thing.  Immediately after she was done physio had me up so Dr. Ghert and Dr. Bizanlad could see me stand.  I stood for about 8 minutes and I did most of it with no support.  Today I also went for a ultrasound of my leg bc it's so swollen right down my knee and to foot.  I can barely bend my toes or ankles.  It's extremely painful.  Hopefully we can get the results tomorrow.  Tomorrow in physio I'll be sitting in a wheelchair and Dan will be able to push me around in a wheelchair (I know he is excited about that).

Anyway it's getting late and I know Dr. Bizlande will be up to wake me up early.



Goodnight blog land.                                                                                                                                                                                          

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