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I MADE IT ..... I'm in Kitchener at Freeport !!!!!!!!!

First I'll apologize for being so tardy with my blog lol.........since coming to Freeport it's been a huge adjustment for me mentally, physically and emotionally.  I got here Wednesday, arrived by Patient Transfer, bumpy ride that was lol......my mom was kind enough to ride with me.  When I got here I was put in a semi private room with a bunch of old ladies.  The lady that arranges everything was kind enough to boot one of the older ladies out of a private room and I got her room.  I kinda feel bad I took a little old 90 year olds room but oh well lol......I prefer private.  I think for the first couple days she kept thinking this was her room because she would wheel herself in lol!  First off, my room is nothing like the room in Hamilton, oh well.  Mom made my bulletin board brighter by adding colour to it and even brought me a stocking to hang off it.  Such a sweet mother I have.  I am glad to be closer to home, easy for family and friends to visit.  It's very different here because I have new nurses and doctors and physio therapists.  The shifts are different here so more nurses often.  One good thing is the food is better here lol........well as good as hospital food can get I guess.  I miss my doctors and nurses in Hamilton though.  I will continue to see my oncologist for years and years to come.  One of the other doctors I got to know really well came to see me on my last day and we exchanged numbers so we could keep in contact in terms of my progress.  I actually heard from him today and he told me that I'm an incredibly strong and brave person and that 2014 is my year.  I'm gonna try to keep thinking that.  I'm not gonna lie since I've been honest with my whole blog, I'm struggling with anxiety and depression and have been ever since my diagnosis.  I thought it would get better since the surgery is behind me but it's only getting worse and I don't want it to get in the way of my physio because I want to get home.  Unfortunately, I'm going to be in the hospital over Christmas which is upsetting to me, but it will just be a different Christmas this year for my family and at least Ill be around for many Christmas's to come.

Anyway, so what do I do since I've been here ......... Everyday I have physio for 30-40 minutes, then I watch a lot of Christmas movies (I'm pretty sure I've seen them all lol).  My parents come up to visit, sister comes.  Dan comes up with the kids which is the best part of my day.  Every time Alyssa sees me she has a big smile and gives me lots of kisses and then she's off walking around the room getting into things she shouldn't lol.  Now that she is walking, there is no stopping her.  The one day she walked into the room with the old ladies lol.....I'm sure they enjoyed seeing a lil baby lol.  Seeing her brightens up my day. 

Tanya and Tina from work came for a visit which was nice.  We had some good laughs and they were good shoulders to lean on since I was a little emotional that day.  I hope we have more visits and maybe the next visit I'll be in a wheelchair booting around with the oldies on my floor lol.  

Anyway I'm getting tired, I'm gonna try to keep up with blogging everyday now.  If you want to come for a visit just text me or message on Facebook.  I love visitors.      

Night night blog land ........ 

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