I had a rough night on Saturday ...... Out of no where I got upset and emotional. I was bbming with my mom and she kept telling me to shake it off and talk myself out of it. No matter what I did, I couldn't shake it off, it turned into a full blown anxiety and panic attack. It was hard to breath and I felt like I was going to pass out. My mom ended up coming up to sit with me and talk me out of it. She has a special way of calming me down. When I think back to what triggered it, I have no idea. I think I'm struggling with the fact that my life will never be the same as it was before. I know I'm lucky to have a second chance at life and lucky my tumour was able to be operated on, but it's upsetting knowing I won't have my old life back. My anxiety is something I'm trying to work on everyday......I really want to get out of this hospital and I need my physio to start progressing. I never thought physio would be this difficult, but it's turning out to be the hardest thing ever.
TUESDAY SEPTEMBER 30TH 2014 @ 3:01PM: relaxing well munchie is sleeping HOW I FEEL: Awesome. Been rocking 1 CANE around the house for the last 2 days and I seem to have a little more energy this week. Well the most exciting news is that I have been rocking 1 cane around the house and feeling pretty damn good. I struggle a little on the carpet upstairs because it's not a flat surface; like the tile and hardwood BUT none the less I am still doing it. I haven't been brave enough to use one cane out running errands; MAYBE sooner then I think. This weekend I am going to go shopping for a new cane. Time to upgrade my granny silver cane to a pink one perhaps. So exciting! Soon I will have canes to match every outfit. hahaha yeh right. I also started acupuncture at physio yesterday; we are hoping that the acupuncture will help speed up the healing of my wound. In 2 weeks we should k...
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