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And so my anxiety begins .....

MONDAY OCTOBER 27TH 2014 @ 8:25pm: in bed watching 2 Broke Girls and eating chocolate mmmm lol

 HOW I FEEL: tired .... stressed out .... exhausted

 Sooooo like the title of my blogspot states .... My anxiety for my 1 Year checkup has begun.  I know right? 1 year already since my surgery and since I was told I officially kicked Cancers Ass #screwyousarcoma #youwillneverwin.  My appointment is next Tuesday - bloodwork, X-ray and appointment with Dr. Ghert....the usual process.  For some reason my anxiety seems higher because I really want to say I've been 1 year Cancer free.  I just get so worked up and I ask myself if these appointments will EVER get easier,  I'm told not really .... The anxiety gets less and less but never fully goes away.  Awhile back I had joined this Facebook group for individuals that have or had chandrosarcomas .... In the beginning it seemed pretty awesome, reading other people's stories (from all over the world) and sharing mine and sharing success stories but then in the last week or so it seems to have given me increased anxiety and stress from reading statistics that people post and some horrible stories about individuals and the cancer coming back.  I decided to remove myself from the group because it wasn't worth reading unnecessary information.  I am going to stick to my rule from day one and trust in what my surgeon says.....and try my hardest to not stress over my cancer coming back until it actually does.  This appointment next week should be interesting because I am curious to see what Dr. Ghert says about me returning to work in January.  I think I've asked every appointment for the last 6 months or so lol!!!!!! 

 So what have I been up to the last few weeks ..... Hmmmmmm ..... This past Friday I attended the Relay for Life at Laurier Brantford with 4 girls from my support group.  My sister goes to Brantford 
'Laurier and her and her friends organized and made this awesome fundraiser happen.  She asked if 
we would lead the survivor lap; of course we couldn't say no.  It turned out to be an amazing night, we of course didn't stay all night because we are old ladies bahahaha ...... Christine did an amazing speech and we were all proud of her for sharing her story infront of everyone.  Thank you ladies for coming .... Look forward to next year. 


I'm still working hard at physio 3x a week.  They are starting to pick on me more and push me past limits I never thought I could do.  Which is great, because the ultimate goal is to say BYE BYE to the cane and HELLO to walking with nothing

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