Happy New Year to everyone who follows my blog. I haven't done much blogging since I've been at Freeport. I don't really have an excuse, just haven't gotten around to it. I told myself I was going to blog everyday or every other day and so far I haven't followed that. Maybe that is one of my New Years resolutions lol..... Along with working my butt off in physio so I can get home to my cute lil family that I miss more and more everyday.
So to start Ill share my success and huge accomplishment ........ First off, my brace came off yesterday woohooooooo.......that needed to go it was so uncomfortable in bed and limited me from doing so much. Now I can sit at 90 degrees, whereas before I couldn't go past 65 Degrees. It definitely will not be missed that's for sure. Now for the big news I can't wait to share ........ I got into a wheelchair today. I know this seems like an easy thing to do but after everything I've been through, this by far was the most difficult thing for me. It's hard because I'm still dealing with my anxiety and my mind takes over when I start physio and it's like this thing in my mind that tells me I can't do it. But anyway I stood up then slowly pivoted with walker till I got to chair......the pivoting was difficult because I haven't used my legs in so long the muscles are weak. I made it into chair and they positioned me and pushed me down to the window and seating area on my floor. This was my first time in 2 weeks that I have been out of my room. I had a mild panic attack in chair but with the reminders of slow deep breaths, it passed. I sat in chair for half an hour which was longer then they expected. Yeah GO ME!!!!!!!!!! one of the old men named Bob came out of his room and said congrats to me for getting in a chair. Sweet of him. Then of course my anxiety went through the roof when I had to get out of chair and get back into bed. Getting out and back into bed was a little easier, not by much but a little easier. So I'm hoping each day gets easier and easier and hoping my anxiety doesn't take over. I have acouple books to read to help with mindfulness and whatnot.
So to start Ill share my success and huge accomplishment ........ First off, my brace came off yesterday woohooooooo.......that needed to go it was so uncomfortable in bed and limited me from doing so much. Now I can sit at 90 degrees, whereas before I couldn't go past 65 Degrees. It definitely will not be missed that's for sure. Now for the big news I can't wait to share ........ I got into a wheelchair today. I know this seems like an easy thing to do but after everything I've been through, this by far was the most difficult thing for me. It's hard because I'm still dealing with my anxiety and my mind takes over when I start physio and it's like this thing in my mind that tells me I can't do it. But anyway I stood up then slowly pivoted with walker till I got to chair......the pivoting was difficult because I haven't used my legs in so long the muscles are weak. I made it into chair and they positioned me and pushed me down to the window and seating area on my floor. This was my first time in 2 weeks that I have been out of my room. I had a mild panic attack in chair but with the reminders of slow deep breaths, it passed. I sat in chair for half an hour which was longer then they expected. Yeah GO ME!!!!!!!!!! one of the old men named Bob came out of his room and said congrats to me for getting in a chair. Sweet of him. Then of course my anxiety went through the roof when I had to get out of chair and get back into bed. Getting out and back into bed was a little easier, not by much but a little easier. So I'm hoping each day gets easier and easier and hoping my anxiety doesn't take over. I have acouple books to read to help with mindfulness and whatnot.
What else has happened here .... I have another infection on my incision where they opened me up for the second surgery. So I'm on antibiotics and have special dressings. I also have a bed sore from Hamilton that formed so quickly bc I didn't have the air mattress bed right away in Hamilton. That's now become infected abit, so they are waiting till the dead skin peels off to see how bad it is. And to top it all off, I have another bedsore on my heel. It's more of a pressure point, nothing to serious, but needs to be watched.
Dans back to work now, which is a little upsetting but I knew he was going back at some point, just wasn't ready for it. I can't thank my family enough, they have been so supportive through all this.
I'm off to relax for rest of night and try to go to bed early, I'm exhausted after today.
Night night everyone
Laura you are so amazing and have been so strong through all of this. I am inspired by your courage and think its wonderful that you are sharing your journey.
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