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Missing having some 'NORMALCY' in my life ....

FRIDAY SEPTEMBER 12TH 2014 @ 12:56PM: just got home from Physio, going to blog before I begin cleaning the bathroom lol

HOW I FEEL:  Pretty good; I rocked Physio today. 

Last night I met the HR ladies from work for dinner at Boston Pizza.  It had been quite some time since we all got together, so it was nice to be able to reconnect with everyone and meet some of the new HR members of the team.  I can't believe it's been almost 2 years since I've been gone from work .... YES YOU HEARD RIGHT 2 YEARS!!!!!   I was expecting to return to work in October/November; however that idea has been kibosh-ed since I have this minor setback with my wound.  I likely won't be going back until the New Year now :(   I was really looking forward to getting some 'normalcy' back into my life.  Especially after meeting with everyone last night, I realized how much I miss work; I never thought I would say I miss it, but I do.  It would be different if I chose to stay at home, but I didn't stand in line and volunteer to get cancer and be off for over 2 years and go through everything I am going through.  I realized last night that I need that interaction with the girls back, something else to focus on and dive back into my work.  I'll admit I am excited but also a little freaked out about going back after being off for so long; I know things have changed drastically and the company has grown significantly but I feel I am ready for the next challenge in my recovery.  Although, I won't be going back to my old job, I will embrace my new responsibilities and just work myself back into the routine of a new 'normal' life.  I'm very lucky I work for a company that has been nothing but understanding about my situation and are excited to welcome me back even with the limitations I will have.  I hope I will be blogging around Christmas/beginning of New Year with a Return to Work Date ..... I'll keep you posted !!!!!

On another note --- I ROCKED PHYSIO TODAY!!!!!  My physiotherapist and I had a good chat and set some goals for me.  We are really working on the stairs, so I can go upstairs alternating not one at a time.  I can go down better then I can go up, because I struggle with lifting my leg up to the next step due to weak muscles.  I also have made a promise that I am going to start using my canes more around the house and use crutches when I go out.  Our goal is that when I return to work I am using 1 cane and using nothing when walking short distances.  The thought of using nothing seems like no end in sight. But then I remember the thought of walking with crutches back in January seemed like it was never going to happen.  I see the improvements, but my patience is starting to wear thin.  I'm happy to say I no longer use the reacher to put pants on and no longer use the lifter thing (don't know the exact name) to get leg into bed.  I haven't used those for over a month now probably.  WOOHOO!!!!

Anyway time to clean the bathroom .... 

Till next time ... have a nice weekend and hopefully it warms up a little lol

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