My Journey with Cancer

So just a quick update, I am back to daily packing and daily nurse visits.  I was so happy and lucky to get my old nurse back, it makes it much easier so I don't need to repeat my story over again.  Maggie is amazing and excellent with wound care, so I know I'm well taken care of.  I am once again on antibiotics because we believe an infection is starting, better safe then sorry I guess.  I am starting to get all to familiar with antibiotics and wound care products.  I am trying to remain positive even though I am extremely frustrated and angry that this has happened again.  I went to physio today and part of my upper body exercises was to punch a bag with weights in my hands to relieve some frustration and stress.  BOY did it feel good lol! Exactly what I needed.  Now to take it easy, relax whenever possible and try to let this wound heal and hopefully quickly.

This will be a short post .... need to blog to relieve some stress and frustration.   People weren't kidding when they said the journey would be long and have a lot of bumps along the way.  I've hit YET another bump ....... Yesterday my one wound started bleeding....yeah I know right? Thought they were healed and I was in the clear.  NOPE ..... I was once again referred back to CCAC and the nurse came tonight to assess me.  I was hoping maybe it was just a small tear on skin....Boy was I wrong it's a tunnel, 5cm deep and I am back to packing and daily nurse visits again.  Fun times let me tell you.  I know it couldve been worse, the nurse told me if the skin on surface didn't break I could've developed an absess or really bad infection.  So I'm fortunate that didn't happen, but still doesn't make me feel great about the whole situation..... Anyway aside from this bump things have been good....still kicking butt at physio....seeing improvements....tryi...

I know I know I know ..... I'm horrible at this whole blogging thing, but I spent sometime looking at this website 'BLOGGER' and figuring out all the features it has and I've added an app on my phone so now I can blog from anywhere.  My promise to myself and everyone else is that I am going to update it as regularly as possible even if it's just a quick post to share exciting news or an accomplishment or whatever.  As I was looking through all the features I came across all my followers and from what country they are from.  I was absolutely shocked to see that people from ALL OVER the world have been following my blog.  It makes me feel pretty good and I hope that some of those followers are people going through similar situations and hopefully my blog helps them get through the tough and crappy times.  I'm no Kris Carr or anything and I'm not exactly the most positive person right now, but I try to be as honest as I can in my blog and share my accomplishme...

Where to begin?  First I apologize I haven't blogged since April...I promised I'd keep my blog up to date when I got home but things have been busy busy busy.  On April 17th I had my routine followup appointment with my surgeon Dr Ghert.  All went well, my scans came back clear and she was very happy to see me walking and was impressed with all the progress I have made.  I still get alot of anxiety at those appointments and I sure hope that gets easier and easier as time passes.  My next appointment is in July the week before we leave for the cottage.  In July it will also be 1 year since I've been diagnosed, something to celebrate for sure.  As Kris Carr would say it will be my 1 year CANCERVERSARY lol!!!!!  I asked my surgeon about returning to work and she said that I should talk to her in 6 months from now.  I am eager to get back, but also know that I can't push myself too much or else I'll set myself back.  Ive been...

This year I will be walking in the Relay for Life along side my friends and family.  I decided to create a team of my own.  My team is called BELIEVE.   Please clink on the link below to donate directly to my team .... Even if you can only donate 5 or 10 dollars ... Anything is appreciated.  Also if you are interested in walking you can sign up to join my team.  Let me know if you have any questions.  You can reach me through email at clemens_laura@hotmail.com or Facebook.  If you would like to make a donation, please go to the Kitchener Relay for Life 2014 website, click on Make a Donation and then enter team name BELIEVE and your donation will go through.   Thank you in advance.  Xoxo

Why Me?  This is still a question I ask myself quite often, almost too often.  I've asked my oncologist from day one why me? Her response to me, there is no reason Laura why you got cancer, you didn't eat anything, you didn't do anything to get it.  This is the mystery of cancer, no one knows why people get it.  It's a horrible disease and I think I'm just starting to see how horrible it really is.  I have friends and family who are cancer survivors, I've spent a lot of time confiding in them and talking about my struggles.  My 2 friends who both are cancer survivors are the most positive people I know and a huge inspiration to me and when I'm having a rough time with things I turn to them.  One of them is my best friend who is a cancer survivor going on 9 years and another is a former coworker who also survived cancer and has been cancer free for 3 years.  It's not that I can't talk to other friends  or family about my struggles but sometime...

I'm a little late in posting this but better late then never lol .... I've been meaning to blog since I got home but just got busy.  I apologize especially to the friends I made in the hospital who have probably been checking my blog to see how I've been doing at home.  I've been home 6 weeks now .... Crazy eh? I can't believe it's been 6 weeks and even harder to believe it's been 5 months since my surgery.  Time sure flies when your having fun - wait fun isn't the right word because none of what I have gone through has been fun.  The only good thing that has come out of all this is that I have met some amazing people along the way ... Hospital staff and other patients.  I also have become a better person through all this, learning to have more patience in everyday life and looking at life in a totally different view.  I'll get into that in a different post.  For now I'll update everyone on what's been going on the last 6 weeks at home ..... ...