My Journey with Cancer

TUESDAY SEPTEMBER 30TH 2014 @ 3:01PM: relaxing well munchie is sleeping HOW I FEEL:  Awesome.  Been rocking 1 CANE around the house for the last 2 days and I seem to have a little more energy this week. Well the most exciting news is that I have been rocking 1 cane around the house and feeling pretty damn good.  I struggle a little on the carpet upstairs because it's not a flat surface; like the tile and hardwood BUT none the less I am still doing it.  I haven't been brave enough to use one cane out running errands; MAYBE sooner then I think.  This weekend I am going to go shopping for a new cane.  Time to upgrade my granny silver cane to a pink one perhaps.  So exciting!  Soon I will have canes to match every outfit.  hahaha yeh right.  I also started acupuncture at physio yesterday; we are hoping that the acupuncture will help speed up the healing of my wound.  In 2 weeks we should k...

FRIDAY SEPTEMBER 12TH 2014 @ 12:56PM: just got home from Physio, going to blog before I begin cleaning the bathroom lol HOW I FEEL:  Pretty good; I rocked Physio today.  Last night I met the HR ladies from work for dinner at Boston Pizza.  It had been quite some time since we all got together, so it was nice to be able to reconnect with everyone and meet some of the new HR members of the team.  I can't believe it's been almost 2 years since I've been gone from work .... YES YOU HEARD RIGHT 2 YEARS!!!!!    I was expecting to return to work in October/November; however that idea has been kibosh-ed since I have this minor setback with my wound.  I likely won't be going back until the New Year now :(   I was really looking forward to getting some 'normalcy' back into my life.  Especially after meeting with everyone last night, I realized how much I miss work; I never thought I would say I miss it, but I do.  It would be different...

I'm going to start a new format for each blog post. SUNDAY SEPTEMBER 7TH 2014 @ 8:28PM: just unpacked, laying in bed relaxing HOW I FEEL: happy, tired and ready for bed Saturday was our 1 Year Wedding Anniversary ..... WOW where did the last year go??? Crazy how quickly time flies.  I think back to everything we have been through in the last year and I'm almost speechless and lost for words to explain this crazy roller coaster of a ride we've been on.  Marriages/Relationships are difficult BUT then let's add all this on top; a cancer diagnosis, radiation treatment, a major life changing surgery,  3 months in hospital away from each other,  then living separately when I came home from hospital, financial burdens, stress of feelings and emotions and raising a TODDLER plus recovering and trying to get back to somewhat of a normal life.  ALL THAT MAKES FOR A LOT OF STRESS TO ADD TO A NEW MARRIAGE!!!!!!!! I won't lie the last year has been extremely difficult f...

So just a quick update, I am back to daily packing and daily nurse visits.  I was so happy and lucky to get my old nurse back, it makes it much easier so I don't need to repeat my story over again.  Maggie is amazing and excellent with wound care, so I know I'm well taken care of.  I am once again on antibiotics because we believe an infection is starting, better safe then sorry I guess.  I am starting to get all to familiar with antibiotics and wound care products.  I am trying to remain positive even though I am extremely frustrated and angry that this has happened again.  I went to physio today and part of my upper body exercises was to punch a bag with weights in my hands to relieve some frustration and stress.  BOY did it feel good lol! Exactly what I needed.  Now to take it easy, relax whenever possible and try to let this wound heal and hopefully quickly.

This will be a short post .... need to blog to relieve some stress and frustration.   People weren't kidding when they said the journey would be long and have a lot of bumps along the way.  I've hit YET another bump ....... Yesterday my one wound started bleeding....yeah I know right? Thought they were healed and I was in the clear.  NOPE ..... I was once again referred back to CCAC and the nurse came tonight to assess me.  I was hoping maybe it was just a small tear on skin....Boy was I wrong it's a tunnel, 5cm deep and I am back to packing and daily nurse visits again.  Fun times let me tell you.  I know it couldve been worse, the nurse told me if the skin on surface didn't break I could've developed an absess or really bad infection.  So I'm fortunate that didn't happen, but still doesn't make me feel great about the whole situation..... Anyway aside from this bump things have been good....still kicking butt at physio....seeing improvements....tryi...

I know I know I know ..... I'm horrible at this whole blogging thing, but I spent sometime looking at this website 'BLOGGER' and figuring out all the features it has and I've added an app on my phone so now I can blog from anywhere.  My promise to myself and everyone else is that I am going to update it as regularly as possible even if it's just a quick post to share exciting news or an accomplishment or whatever.  As I was looking through all the features I came across all my followers and from what country they are from.  I was absolutely shocked to see that people from ALL OVER the world have been following my blog.  It makes me feel pretty good and I hope that some of those followers are people going through similar situations and hopefully my blog helps them get through the tough and crappy times.  I'm no Kris Carr or anything and I'm not exactly the most positive person right now, but I try to be as honest as I can in my blog and share my accomplishme...

Where to begin?  First I apologize I haven't blogged since April...I promised I'd keep my blog up to date when I got home but things have been busy busy busy.  On April 17th I had my routine followup appointment with my surgeon Dr Ghert.  All went well, my scans came back clear and she was very happy to see me walking and was impressed with all the progress I have made.  I still get alot of anxiety at those appointments and I sure hope that gets easier and easier as time passes.  My next appointment is in July the week before we leave for the cottage.  In July it will also be 1 year since I've been diagnosed, something to celebrate for sure.  As Kris Carr would say it will be my 1 year CANCERVERSARY lol!!!!!  I asked my surgeon about returning to work and she said that I should talk to her in 6 months from now.  I am eager to get back, but also know that I can't push myself too much or else I'll set myself back.  Ive been...